My Journey to Joy Pt2

I think it’s easy to glamorize the healing process, from dark and dreary to glowing and happy, but let me tell something to you. It’s the healing process that is the hardest thing to be present with. IT’S NASTY. It’s literally the darkness coming out of your body. It can be so hard to be seen in and to even see yourself in, but I want to remind you this: your demons are not you. All of the darkness and cruelty and meanness and evil and hate is not you/ I promise. It is simply something moving through you, and the more you can allow it to, and to accept its space in your story, the more easeful it will be to allow it through and to be able to garner the wisdom that comes from witnessing such an extraordinary feat of human experience. To heal emotionally, mentally, and spiritually is no an easy undertaking/ It requires courage, and bravery. Remember those things when you are in the throes of darkness. To experience struggle is a true symbol of strength. You are brave. And you can do this. I believe in you <3

So, where were we?

Ah yes, the breakdown. The breakdown may seem like a regression, and regression can be a part of the process, but you cannot make progress without having a breakdown of sorts. This is where your internal structures of who you are start to crumble and come back into a sort of potential energy. This is where all your self-work comes in! Now you rebuild from a place of yes, and expansion, and this is what I want! You allow that energy to have a say in how you rebuild your sense of self. This is also where it is the most important to have support. Repeat after me: I will allow support in my breakdowns. One more time! I WILL ALLOW SUPPORT IN MY BREAKDOWNS. “But, I don’t want to be a burden for others!” Listen, you will be 5x more of a burden for others if you make them support you in times of suffering instead of taking this golden opportunity to let them help you rewrite the story when you’re actually feeling receptive and open to receiving help. You can do this.